That ice cream was waaaaay too sweet. Yech. Icky..

Still haven’t called me yet. I can be very antsy, but but but. I need to talk to them! Must know which tickets to buy today. Today’s the last day the cheap one for the 11th of June can be bought. I wonder how we can get seats next to each other when we go back. It’d be kinda silly to be on the same train but at opposite ends.

I wore my new blue dress today for the first time. Got some attention at the store. I didn’t realize how revealing it was until I actually got outside. I guess part of the reason why people (mostly men) were staring was the bra I wore. It’s padded. ;) Lol. Now I know how Jaz feels whenever she goes out in a low-cut shirt or dress. Like she said, our mom and grandparents would die if they saw her wearing her dress. I don’t feel like I wear dress like me anymore. Now it’s just plain jeans and a T-shirt. None of the hippie-folk-ethnicish clothes that I used to wear. The reason why? All of my interesting articles of clothing are in storage. And boy do I miss them. Jaz said that I dress like a “soccer mom”. Not the kind that I saw on Oprah yesterday, but you know. NORMAL clothes.. And I don’t like it one bit. I don’t feel like I’m being me when I blend in. I need to be different. There’s this T-shirt that I saw in the Fortean Times that can be ordered with the text: “You smile because I’m different. I laugh because you’re all the same.” There were other texts as well that I liked. It’s just that those shirts cost so much. I’d rather copy the text, buy a cheap T-shirt and use fabric paint to write it on the shirt. But again, all of our fabric paints are in storage. rolls eyes

Alex just called. ^-^ Instead of just hanging out in the park tomorrow, we might be going to Tervuren. Not quite sure what’s up over there, but it’s worth a look. As long as I’m back by 6 o’clock I’m up for anything.

Haven’t seen or heard from Tian-Le in ages.. maybe I should send her an e-mail asking when she’d want to get together.. And then send one to Houda as well. I know I’ll talk about this, but it’ll be a while before anything actually happens. ^^;;

Erm, right. There’s a man to check the Internet connection in this apartment right now. We don’t have the Internet here… maybe BBF is installing it to all of their apartments in this building. Strange. When I went to answer the door I thought it would be someone coming to change the light bulbs. At least he isn’t looking at me funnily. whispers I’m not wearing a bra and the T-shirt is doesn’t hide that fact. ^^;;

Alex just sent me an SMS asking if I wanted to go to the movies on Sunday afternoon. I dunno… don’t really feel like the movies right now. Haven’t replied yet. I’ll probably send him an e-mail when I get online.

Someone please remind me not to wear high heels three days in a row when walking long distances on cobblestones. The blisters I have… not fun. Especially the one on my fourth toe on my right foot. Makes walking in my sandals a real pain. Actually, the sandals are the ones that caused the blister… grr… But they’re still pretty! I guess I just gotta break them in properly.

My headache’s gone. \o/

I’d love it if we could get the Internet in here. If the prices are the same here as they are in the apartments on Dunantlaan then it’d be 60€/month. Because we’d only get it for one month. The weekly price is 25€. If it’s for 3 months then it’d be 50€. I think. Not sure. But when I go pay next month’s rent then I’ll ask about it. And just think of all the money saved on phone calls! They don’t have to call us anymore, they can use Jade’s MSN to talk to us since they’ve got a broadband connection in Myrskylä now. It’s not fair though. Jaz and I spent months persuading them on the utility of a broadband connection and they kept saying that they don’t need it. Then when the both of us are finally out of the country, what do they do? They get broadband. Y’know, now that they have it, they’ll never get my uncle to leave and live on his own. Why should he? He’s got all the comforts when he lived on his own and now someone makes dinner for him every night too! Jaz told me a really funny thing yesterday. This happened during Easter while I was in England. They’re all eating at the dinner table and my grandma keeps asking my dad if he wants things. She offers to go get something from the kitchen for him and again he says that he doesn’t want it. She goes anyway. Then my uncle says: “Watch this. calls out to the kitchen Mom? Could you bring me some cheese?” The reply from the kitchen: “Heikki can come get his own cheese.” Lol. That just shows the favouritism that she has. If she was already in the kitchen, she could’ve brought the cheese with her. And she was getting something my dad didn’t even want. rolls eyes I am so glad I don’t have to live there. Sort of feel sorry for my parents who do. I’d go nuts if I was stuck with my grandparents for more than a few hours. And how she fawned over Oliver when we were there for Jade’s birthday… Seriously, you don’t go pet someone’s head and play with their hair when you’ve just met them!

The cleaner came today. \o/ I have never been happier to see clean floors. Lol. Tomorrow someone’s gonna come change some light bulbs. Can’t sleep late. u_u

I’ve been thinking. About soulmates. Just like Prince Henri was thinking in “Ever After” when he was at the lake with Leonardo Da Vinci. First line of thinking: Is there just one for everyone? What if they’re on the other side of the world? What if they die before you meet them? Do you then get another one? Or is that it? Then: Okay, there are more than one. If you meet one before the other, are they the one that you’re meant to be with? What happens if you meet two at the same time? Then how do you choose? What exactly is a soulmate? What I think, and this disagrees with the questions I posed above, is that they’re two people who are meant to be together, not necessarily in a romantic or sexual way. They’re the sister/brother destiny forgot to give you. You’re bound to them your life in one way or another. Now this doesn’t mean that it’ll be an easy relationship. No relationship is ever easy.

• had to take care of some stuff -

Okay, I’m back. God, some guys know how to be jerks. Even smart men are stupid. A certain someone has been stringing along someone else for ages and this someone else still likes the other one and… Urgh. Even my own boyfriend (who is pretty wonderful! don’t get me wrong here…) can be an idiot. Is there just some gene that guys get which tells them how to hurt girls?? I mean really. I know I may be over-sensitive sometimes, but if this happened to me which just happened to this person… well, I’d be bawling my eyes out for weeks. Users are the worst. Especially if they get one to make an emotional commitment and then take it to a physical level and then said that it won’t work out… I wish I could just take a sledge hammer and beat some sense into this person’s skull! Actually, I’d need two. One for each party involved. The first hammer would be to get it into the guy’s head that you DON’T DO THAT. Ever. It’s not funny. Something like this can scar someone for life. Someone who isn’t as strong as this person that this happened to. The other hammer would be to knock some sense into the girl that no matter how much you think you can trust a guy, the only thing you can trust is that they’ll break your heart. No matter how much they didn’t mean to. It just depends on the guy how much your heart will break. But it will. Maybe all at once or in little bits just crumbling down to nothing. I don’t like to think that I’m negative about this in general… it’s just that… this guy… Urgh. The whole situation is nuts.

Must think of happier things. Like I get to see Gubby in 23 nights. ^-^ If my dad (another man that has the ability to make me feel like awful even though he doesn’t mean to) manages to call me in time for him to get the cheap tickets. rolls eyes

I know what’ll make me not think about this. Sims! So play I shall… not like I need an excuse anyway. XP

I can’t sleep. Well, I can but I don’t want to. Because there’s the danger that if I go back to sleep, I won’t wake up before noon. Now while that in itself isn’t that bad, if I sleep that late, I won’t have time to go to the post office (if necessary, don’t know yet). Plus the cleaner comes at 11 or so (I hope!!). If she doesn’t, then I’ll have to call Robbie. Well, I have to call him anyway. Two more lights went out on Tuesday. rolls eyes

Why am I cold? I keep getting these chills. Maybe I need more sleep…

I got a text message last night. All it said was: “Boo! :oD” grin Scared Jaz (since she was holding my phone and it’s on vibrate).

It’s sooooooooo frustrating speaking on the phone with Mom. I had a simple question: Do they know when I could go back to England with Oliver? She could’ve just said no, she doesn’t. But noooo, she sighs and rolls her eyes (I’m guessing since I can’t actually see her) and then starts moaning about how she doesn’t know a thing and that I should know that she doesn’t know and that I shouldn’t ask about things so far ahead in the future (?!). Seriously, it’s less than four weeks away when Oliver gets here. And the tickets have to be bought exactly 21 days before the journey to get the cheapest price. Buying a return ticket is a whole lot cheaper than buying two one ways. So we need to know when the two of us are going back. Now. Dad had better call me tomorrow. Preferably before I go online, but who knows? Maybe he won’t call until Saturday. It’s so annoying not being able to plan anything further ahead than just two weeks.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

Interesting.. nice to know I’d never cheat. I guess that’s pretty much accurate.. but I have no idea how choosing animals determines all of that…

Four weeks!!! grin Yes I know, I get excited early.. can’t wait though! ^_^

All of the errands for today have been done. The next thing I need to do before I go get Jaz from school, is the laundry. Had to cut my pretty long nails. sniffle Can’t do laundry with long nails. Or pretty much anything else for that matter. Typing was horrible! Especially on this laptop…

I got the Sims to work! grin Thank you thank you thank you Oliver and Anji!!! I’m so addicted to that game. The Unleashed expansion pack is so much fun. The cats are so cute. The dogs aren’t that bad either, but it’s a bugger to house train them.

I think it’s cute how guys can bond over practically anything. It’s great that Oliver and Jack get along so well. It’s just that… well, yesterday when we were at Waterloo and just about to leave, the two of them almost completely ignored us. I didn’t mind that much since I was being hugged while the two talked but Jaz was feeling very pomé. The point was that we had made the trip to see the two of them and we were leaving, so we wanted a bit of attention. It’s not nice being ignored. When we’re out with Anji and Steve I’m fine because I usually talk to Anji or listen to someone else’s conversation. There I don’t feel left out. And I know that sometimes when Jaz and I are together we make others feel left out when we speak Finnish but it’s not intentional. We just can’t speak to each other in English. Just doesn’t happen. We feel too weird speaking English to each other. We can listen while the other speaks English to someone else, but when it’s to each other… nuh uh. Same thing with Ellu. We sometimes use English terms for stuff we can’t remember the name in Finnish, but the bulk of the convo is in Finnish.

Okies, must do laundry now. Needs time to dry etc…

I’ve been back for about five hours now and… it sucks. At least it hasn’t reared its ugly head that much this time. The sucky feeling I have isn’t that strong. Last time it physically hurt for like eight hours, the idea finally taking root that I’m back here again. Now, it’s more of a “meh” feeling. Possibly because I was away for only four nights. The time before it was four weeks! So yeah, I’m not feeling that bad right now. Not that good either. Not feeling much either way. I just… am. But it sure was a fun extended weekend! grin The only time I was able to get a good night’s sleep was when we stayed over at Anji’s. Gotta say, I love that bed. So spacious. And there’s no fighting over the duvet. Didn’t get much sleep (no need to go into detail as to why XP) but the six hours I did get were great. ^-^ One really weird thing happened while we were away. Jaz has met this guy named Nick Shanks on OkCupid. Oliver has received comments from a Nicholas Shanks in his blog (he also has a link to Nick’s site). As it turns out, this is the exact same person. Small world, eh? o.O;;

One thing I am really happy about that I found out when I was over at Anji’s: I have lost 3 kg. Haven’t done anything special.. Maybe it’s the walking… or then the fact that I’ve been buying more fruit and less chocolate, etc. Whatever it is, it’s working. Or isn’t if Anji’s scale isn’t accurate.

sigh Four more weeks until I see him. But then it’ll be at least three weeks that we’ll be together. small smile Some comfort in that.

Why do they say that they’ll call me back when they won’t? I’ve called that EuroRent place three times today, twice they’ve said that they’ll call me back in the next ten minutes. It’s been an hour since the last time they said that. rolls eyes And I don’t know has the apartment been rented to someone else or not. The lady said that this morning one apartment in Auderghem had been rented but she wasn’t able to check from her computer at that moment was it the one I was talking about. I don’t have the credit to keep calling them. And when my dad calls to ask how far I’ve gotten with them, well… I can’t tell him anything new. So then he’ll get frustrated and possibly take it out on me. Probably thinks that I can’t take care of anything. And no, I’m not imagining this, he’s done it before.

But on the bright side, we’ll be arriving in London in about six hours. ^-^ Which means that I should start dinner now so that it’ll be ready when Jaz gets back.

Egh.. phoning from my cell before 4 pm is not cheap. Costs 0,50€/min. If I wait to call after 4, then it’s 0,25€/min. Aaaaaaaaanyway, the way I found out about this was when I called this place called EuroRent. Possibly getting an apartment in Auderghem. Spoke with them this morning, then my dad called and I told him everything I had found out about the penthouse from the woman on the phone. He told me to make an appointment to see the place. I called EuroRent again at 2:30 but no one picked up. So then I called again just after four and got an answering machine. Oh how I hate those machines. I always sound so… well not me, whenever I leave a message. But leave a message I did. So hopefully they’ll call me back tomorrow before we leave. If they say that I can see the place tomorrow then I’ll probably stop by the post office too. The one we used to go to when the whole family was in Brussels. Not that close to where we are now. Told my dad that when he asked me to stop by that place. He was on his “Three hours is plenty of time!” reasoning again. If I don’t want to walk (which would take me about an hour (whispers slow walker!)) I’d have to take either two trams or a bus, a metro and a tram… like I said, not easily accessible. And when I go see the penthouse, I’ll probably have to take like three busses before I’m anywhere close to a sensible walking distance. Maybe someone can give me a ride to the place! hopeful

!!! Leaving tomorrow! grin

Okay, back to all the interesting things I did today. When we were leaving the Internet café the dude who runs it asked us where we were from. “Oh, Finland.” “Iiiingland?” “No. FINland.” “Ah.” A bit of a creepy dude. The previous time he gave us this really strange smile when we were leaving. Chin down, a really wide Joker (from Batman) like grin, eyes gleaming… Yeah okay, maybe I’m embellishing a bit, but still… creepy. But he’s the nicest out of the three guys that I’ve dealt with so far. One doesn’t say a word. The other has a serious dandruff problem and just looks mean. So Creepy Guy is the one I prefer to deal with, even if he is creepy.

Bought the beer and chocolate today. There weren’t any seashells so I’m going back to the store tomorrow to see if they have any. If not, then… dunno. Get more of the other chocolate? Or of something else similar to the seashells… We’re just staying for the weekend, but boy, we don’t travel light. The suitcase I used when I went over for a month is barely holding all of our stuff. ^^;; Then again, the beer does weigh a bit. And it takes up some of the space we have… Ah well. I’m gonna make Jaz pull the suitcase from Schuman when we come back on Monday, since I’ll be taking care of it when we go. I hope we have enough time to exchange money before we leave. If not… well, not good.

One thing I certainly won’t miss when I’m in England are the early mornings. I have my alarm go off at 6:45 just to make sure that Jaz is up, then I have to get up at 7:30 to lock the door… get up before eleven if I want any warm water… I just want to sleep late! ;_; I guess that’s what summer is for. Not summer yet. u_u

I like this feeling. The feeling that I’ve actually done something during the day. I’ve been to the store, ironed, washed the dishes, tidied up a bit… Can’t be bothered to do the laundry right now. Maybe after Jaz gets back from school. We’ll see…

I’m really sleepy for some reason. I don’t think it’s the lack of sleep, since I slept for over 10 hrs last night. Some bits of my dream are coming back to me. There was a store and I found juice that cost only 0,29€/l. But when I had finally gotten my mom back to that aisle, the whole shelf was empty. All of the customers had gone too. The place was closing. It was very disorientating. Suddenly I’m in a white hallway hugging Mikko S. We’re walking (I’m going backwards) and still hugging. There’s a small white bed and a four-year-old Jade snuggles up in between us and asks us to read her a story. I ask Mikko to carry Jade back to her room when she’s fallen asleep. That’s about it. All I remember.

Heh. Just remembered what happened on Saturday when I was cooking. The pot I was using was too hot to hold with bare hands, so I used the towel that’s used to dry the dishes. It must’ve been too close to the stove and… well… now there’s a hole in it. It almost caught on fire. sheepish grin Big oops for that day. Just hope that it won’t be noticed until it’s in the wash… It’s not a big hole, can fit the tip of my pinkie in it. It wouldn’t have been good if it had actually caught on fire. O_O;;;

Only 3 nights to go! grin If Jaz isn’t meeting up with Jack on Thursday, then the three of us (Jaz, Oliver & I) are going to go see the Amityville movie. Just thinking about it gives me the heebie-jeebies. I’ve done lots of research on the place and it’s pretty safe to say that I’m pretty well acquainted with the back story to the movie. Now I don’t necessarily agree with the book that the movie is based on, but I won’t say anything about the movie until I actually see it.