Still feeling kinda funky.. I really don’t like being in this kind of state where just the slightest thing makes me want to cry. Need to get rid of this before work starts. Just in case there’s another customer who’s feeling agressive for some reason and takes it out on me. Tim is a good friend. Really helped talking to him last night. Made somethings a bit clearer. Didn’t get rid of all of the weird feelings I was having, but still..

“Sabrina” is a good remedy though. Just watching the romance unfold between Humphrey Bogart and Audrey Hepburn makes me so happy. The whole movie is really funny too. Prefer this one over the newer version. There is no way Harrison Ford can ever compare to Humphrey Bogart. There is just something about that man. “Casablanca” is a wonderful movie too. happy sigh How I love old movies. The story, the stars.. it is just soo.. wonderful. Captivating. Then after work today Teresa and I have made plans to watch “Cyrano de Bergerac”. All in French with no subtitles. Should be fun. I saw some of it last night, but I wanna see the whole movie.

Seeing Daddy tomorrow. Gonna get my hair cut. ^-^ Not too much but just enough to get rid of the split ends. It’s been ages since someone’s done something to my hair. It’s therapeutic getting your hair done in a salon. The whole hair washing that comes with a mini-massage, the revitalizing treatments, the brushing.. makes me feel nice. One product that really works like it says it would (and that I love) is Pantene Pro-V’s Volumizing conditioner. Each time I’ve used it, it’s made my hair go oomph. :D

Urgh.. Why do they keep sending me msgs when I’ve told them that I’ve got a shift today and I won’t be taking any more? Can’t they see that I’ve put a block into my calendar?

Well.. dunno where to start really. Too many things to say. Lots of emotions all jumbled together.. guilt, hurt, happiness.. Meh. I’ll just leave it at that. Sort it out in my tangible diary. Somehow easier.

I have decided that I like the Mozilla browser more than the Konqueror one. Sure the font is a bit smaller, but Mozilla lets me access places and it actually keeps me logged in on LJ! Konqueror doesn’t..

Had an okay time at work last night. Talked with this Bulgarian lady named Aise. Turns out that she knows one of my former classmates. And then I saw Anne on the cover of MeNaiset.. she looked like she didn’t have any eyebrows. Which was weird. o.O Anyway, got back at 10 pm (since I missed the earlier train by just a minute sigh). The whole house was completely dark. Not a single light anywhere. Well, they had left the key in the door so I got in okay and almost tripped over Elli. I figured that everyone had gone to sleep. So I tried being really quiet while I got myself something to eat. Auri came in half an hour later and she told me that everyone had gone to the movies. Only Aulis and Ämmi were in the house. Lol.

Spoke with a whole lot ppl last night. No one’s really interested in buying cheap condoms unfortunately. They claim that they don’t need them. It could be just that I’m not much of a salesperson. XP But I’m pretty sure that it was last night’s convos that gave really weird dreams. It had something to do with outerspace and two roommates and a truck.. I remember hugging the blond guy and thinking “Wow.. nice muscles”. It was just.. weird.

I like the mornings here. I can sleep somewhat late, maybe wake up to nice music (like this morning).. then have breakfast and a conversation with someone. Usually it’s Sampo but sometimes it’s Auri’s mom too. Like this morning, we were remembering times when he was a kid in Ecuador and I was in Florida.. talking about endangered species and how some boats don’t watch out for manatees (what are they in Finnish btw? We couldn’t figure it out..) that cause really bad scarring on their backs. It’s heartbreaking seeing them with so many scars. Why can’t people just respect the speed limits??

Only a week to go.. I’ll probably be so bored at Myrskylä. The library is only open Tuesday & Friday mornings and Wednesday & Thursday afternoons. It’ll probably be way too cold to do anything outside. Well, I would go ice skating if I could find my skates.. or then go swimming if my mom would let me. She claims that I’ll catch a cold if I go now. sniffle Ah well. It’ll only be about 3 days of possible boredom. The weekend will be spent with Dad and then Thursday I’m leaving!! grin So.. only Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday to get through.

This is weird.. When I opened this page I felt like I had loads to write about, but now.. I can’t figure out why I can’t think of anything to write.

Yesterday’s documentary was interesting. I feel so sorry for those men. They get breasts when they’re teenagers, go to the doctor who manages to botch up the surgery completely and they still have to live in shame and not dare to go out topless. Like after this one man’s surgery, he was still in square one. The only difference being that instead of having breasts he had these dents in their place. It just looked so awful. What on earth were those surgeons thinking? Then the week before, the topic of the documentary was PSAS. Persistant Sexual Arousal Syndrome. It can’t be fun living with that. Especially if you’re like Heather who lives in the middle of the U.S. where everyone’s really religious. Jeannie had a good sense of humor about it though: “I’ve heard that when women hit menopause, their desire to have sex diminishes. It’d be just my luck that I’d be the oddball..” or something like that. At the end when everyone who was interviewed met up, it looked like they were having a ball discussing different types of sex toys. They had only just met, but instantly bonded. It’s not easy finding people you click with right away. Granted they all shared the same problem which made it a bit easier to relate to the other person, but even then being able to trust someone enough so quickly can’t be a piece of cake.

On a related note, I read in the newspaper that this one Hungarian (or was it Bulgarian?) man has invented a musical condom. The piece the condom plays is determined by the tempo of the thrusting.. I guess must’ve been really bored if he wanted to invent something like that.

Why is it so cold in this house all the time? I think there’s a door open somewhere. I really want to go somewhere where there’s sunshine and warmth. Even if it’s just for a week. I’m just so sick of winter, the cold, the snow.. Sure it’s really pretty sometimes, but then there’s the darkness to cope with as well. I don’t like the dark. I need sunshine. I need to go out into the fresh air and not have my face completely frozen in the first few minutes I’m there. I guess you could say that I’m a summer person. There’s this theory that a person likes most the season in which they were born in. And in my case, it’s true. I love summer the most. Spring and fall are okay.. I mean, it’s nice seeing the trees slowly become greener and everything in bloom and then later seeing it all change into reds and oranges with the air becoming a bit crisper each day. But it’s nothing to compared to summer. Summer is when you have no worries, just enjoying the sunshine and blue skies and warm weather. I don’t think I’d want to live in a Floridian climate for the rest of my life, but I know that I can’t cope with the Finnish type either. Maybe something from in between.. like Southern France? Or Northern Florida. There the temperature drops to about 0 C during the winter, but it’s not rainy or snowy.. just cold. And cold is good when it’s winter. Then there’s the sunshine that warms you up during the day. And there’s an equal amount of sunshine every single day.

I want to visit Ireland. I don’t really know why. There’s something about their music, their accents.. their mythology. Very fascinated by it. Not that keen on the weather there though. From what I’ve been told, it’s raining there all the time. Can’t be as bad as that one year in Belgium though. The winter 01-02 it rained almost every day. So it was quite a shock when spring came and there was actually some sunshine. And I of course managed to burn my skin in just 30 mins of being outside. It didn’t feel like there was the chance that I could burn. I blame the slight breeze for that.

Only 8 more nights to go. I’ll get my spring sooner than everyone stuck here. ^_^

They like my bread. so pleased It’s really easy to make too. If anyone’s interested in getting the recipe, just ask. I doubt that anyone will since practically no one ever reads this.. And the ones that do, aren’t interested in baking bread themselves. Anyone wanna prove me wrong? Didn’t think so.

Took Elli out for another walk. For some reason I can’t stand being inside all day right now. I really don’t want to go to work tomorrow either, but I will. Just sitting there scanning products and handling money is really starting to annoy me. I have no idea how some people can actually do that their whole lives. It’s really boring and there’s the fact that it’s usually us who get yelled at when the customer isn’t having a good day. Even though it’s not the cashier’s fault that the store is out of a certain product. Then you gotta think about the monotony of the job. Can after bottle after cheese packet after ready-made meal after dog food… you get the picture. I’ve been so bored that I’ve even begun to memorize some of the EAN-codes. Like for instance the box of small tomatoes costs 3,55 euros and the code is 8 430543 000007. It helps to remember that though, because the bar code never works on that and you always have to type in the EAN. So whenever I see those tomatoes, I immediately punch in the numbers and don’t even bother trying to scan it. Eggs and nuts are also becoming pretty familiar. But I won’t bore you all with those codes.

I love music. I can’t live without it. It’s also one reason why I love staying at Auri’s. There’s always some form of music being played. Like right now Sampo put on a CD where everything’s sung in Spanish. I’m guessing it’s some kind of folk music. But the stuff that I like most, is what he played earlier today when he came back for lunch. It was Irish. Don’t ask me to name the instrument because I don’t know it’s name.. I know it’s not a guitar, nor a mandolin. But something like those. Anyway, Irish music. There’s just something about it that makes me really happy. And the country music they play in the Southern states of the U.S. I like the fiddle bit especially in the 10th song of the Dixie Chicks’ “Home” album. I like the whole thing, but especially that because it’s an instrumental track.

I wonder when I’ll see Krisi. I won’t have the time on Saturday since I was silly enough to forget to exchange money yesterday.. and it’ll take me 30 mins to get to work on Friday (since it’s at Kirkkonummi). I still have her book. Must return it ASAP. Otherwise I’ll lose it somewhere in the mess over at Myrskylä…

These ants are really annoying! I’ve just found several crawling up my leg. Auri’s mom told me earlier that they’ve got an ant problem when I mentioned that I saw one walking across this screen. I just hope that they won’t crawl into bed with me. My great aunt has an ant problem as well. I just want to know how do the ants survive the winter? If I think it’s way too cold then how are ants alive? Do they hibernate? Same question applies to flies. I’ve found one that was still alive in my grandma’s bedroom when we were clearing it out..

.. which it isn’t supposed to do. Or so I’m told. For some weird reason, whenever I log into Hotmail, it suddenly kicks me out of the session and I have to log in to the comp with another user. Very strange.

Well.. now I’m just waiting for my hair to dry before I go take Elli out for a walk. No work today. Even though they did call me.. very persistent that lady.. practically forcing me to take the shift, but I did manage to decline. Don’t really want to learn a new system just yet.. maybe when I get back from Belgium..

A few things I realized this morning when I woke up. Yesterday, I forgot to do a whole lot of things.

1. Exchange euros into pounds.. (how much do I need?)
2. Get a piece of paper from Staffpoint where it shows what I have been doing for the past few months..
3. Fax the real estate agency this one paper that has my sigunature on it, allowing them to sell my grandma’s apartment.. Well, I can do the first one on Saturday when I go back. Just need to check that I’ll have enough time in between changing trains to actually get the money exchanged before my ticket expires. Not nice paying a 60 euro fine just because my ticket expired two minutes earlier.. Then the paper from Staffpoint.. I guess I could ask them to mail it to me. The fax should be done today. Just depends on how quickly my mom calls the guy and tells him where to fax it to..

I slept wonderfully last night. I really love Auri’s bed. It’s so nice and soft (but not too soft). Did not want to wake up this morning. Just lie there in bed, all nice and toasty under the covers. Especially after sleeping on a couch for 5 months, that bed is heaven. And all the space I had! Plus, it doesn’t squeak whenever I want to change my position (unlike my old beds). That matress is amazing I tell you.

The weather looks so nice outside. I’ll bet that it’s really cold too. Hmm.. I should get warmer socks from somewhere. These ones are too thin.. and they’ve got holes in them. Why do I have so many articles of clothing that have holes in them? At least Mom’s happy that I’m throwing some of my clothes away when I leave. (9 nights to go!!)

First day of March. In my mind that means that spring is here. But when I look outside and see the piles of snow.. but the birds are chirping! Like right now, there are two cute little ones hopping around on the fence I can see from the window. They sorta look like punatulkkus, except that they’re yellow. Are they called talitinttis? Anyway, I can see and hear them. ^_^ I like nature. Being outside. Just walking around. Especially during the summer it’s nice to just sit on a blanket in a park in the sun and read. Or then play badminton outside. That’s something I haven’t done for ages. And the version of baseball that Jaz and I play….

I’m just so happy that the sun is out and there are no clouds in sight. ^__^ I guess you could say that I’m in love with life. I’m just.. happy for no good reason. And I like it that way.

Well, I think I should go eat now.. before I go out with Elli and freeze my nose off. :P

I am finally able to update again. Using Linux again. There’s this thing called Kopete which is like MSN Msgr, but really weird. And annoying because it doesn’t flash the little thingies when someone says something. But anyway.

Went to the magistrate today. Proved that I most definitely am alive. A waste of time in my opinion. Anyone walking on the street can tell that I’m not dead. XP Saw Wind afterwards. Walked around Helsinki, looked for Gubby’s birthday present (yes, I know that it was earlier this month, but since I don’t get to see him for another 10 nights I haven’t really bothered to look for his present yet.. been busy with work, y’know). Unfortunately, did not find anything from Helsinki. Which is pretty weird since it is the capital of Finland and thus implies that everything that is needed should be found from there somewhere. Ah well.. Had a very nice smoothie at Spizy Co. when we went to eat. And a cookie. I liked the smoothie more than the cookie. Except it made me very cold from inside. Came over to Auri’s around 4. It’s a good thing I called Auri before I got to the train station in Helsinki and checked that it was okay that I’ll be staying at their place. It turns out that she had forgotten to inform her mom, but she did then call her and tell her that I’ll be there. Then after dinner Sampo, Theresa and I went to the store.. and I did find what I was looking for. ^_^

Cold.. I don’t like being cold. Way too cold outside for my taste. Or it could be that I’m not wearing enough. Still.. no fun..

I think it’s time I go to sleep.. been a long day.. lots of walking around..

Why does a train ticket from London to Brussels cost 60 €, while a flight from Tampere to London Stansted costs only 75 € taxes included??

Then again, it is cheaper to go straight from London to Brussels than to fly back to Finland and buy a really expensive (like over 200€) plane ticket to Brussels? No point in that really.

So right now, my plan is to go by train to Brussels. Even if it means paying 60€ for my ticket. rolls eyes All of my hard eaarned money going to be spent on some measly train ticket. Ah well..

At least I’ll get to be back in Brussels again. Missed it so much, yes I have. ^_^

But the next question is.. when do I go there?? ASAP is what I’d want, but life never gives you exactly what you want. Sooooooooo.. we’ll just wait and see.

Can’t wait to live with Squidgy again. Matsh fan tät was, yah.. (juusa forgotsa dät nikneim in joor sörvei juu nou).

I don’t like handling bills. Really dries up my hands. Like last night I spent over an hour just moisturizing (not just my hands, but face and legs too). Hmm.. should’ve polished my nails. But at least bare nails are better than having chipped nail polish. Must look presentable while I’m at work. Which is a good thing that I remembered to take my hairbrush with me today. My hair is totally out of control today. Maybe I should’ve washed it last night instead of this morning.. or then use some sort of taming product on it. I feel so.. so.. räjähtänyt. Lol.

At least that’s the kind of look I got from the man who works at the jewelry shop where they repaired my mom’s watch. It’s this really nice watch and I came in looking like a state to pick it up. ^_^;;

Dis is foor Squidgy Ai häf riiricoordabl siidiis.. sou duu juu vant tu bai van oor tuu from mii? Ai dount niid moor thän thrii änd ai häf faiv. Ai laiks “Mijo de la luna” sou.. juu nou.. ai vant to get ät liist dät song on a siidii sou ai kän liisen tu it ven juu aar nat hiir.

Right, now back to babbling.

While on the train coming over here, I saw this huge flock of ducks sitting on ice basking in the morning sun. Veyr cute. But.. don’t their bottoms get cold sitting on top of ice?

On a related note, the sun has finally begun to show up more. ish happy about that Like yesterday, I spent 30 mins just standing outside letting the sun warm my face. (Okay, I was also waiting to Mirja to get to her office so I could go inside.. XP)

Work.. well, the good thing is that I’ve gotten another shift, which is on Saturday. Saturdays mean better pay. But, my shift starts at 8:30 and I was supposed to go see my dad at 9:30… so that’s kinda out of the question. Unless it can be changed so that I go see him on Sunday. I doubt it. But there’s always next weekend.

Okay.. some goods news about the funeral on Saturday. I’ve found another cousin I like. His daughter is one of the sweetest little things I’ve seen. So cute, so cute.. and the cousin that was in prison a few years ago seems okay.. The rest of my cousins are just plain weird. Don’t really talk. Like, at all. Except my step-cousin. He’s an okay guy. Let’s see.. not much has really happened. Gonna be kicked out of the apartment after Feb. Loads of yelling and accusations been thrown at my parents by my aunts. Not so nice to listen to. Whacked, the whole lot of them..

Work has been.. dull. Boring. Although yesterday I did get to speak German to this one man who was buying salmon. He looked so happy that I said “Bitte” and “dreiundvierzig fünfundfünfzig”.. did I write that correctly? It’s been so long since I’ve last studied German.. or listened to it. That’s why I’ve decided that I’ll go see “Der Untergang” or whatever it’s name is by myself if no one wants to see it. Then there’s the documentary festival or whatever it is next Tuesday about 9/11. I’m considering going there by myself as well if no one is willing to go with me. I actually like going to movies by myself. Me time. ^_^

Ugh.. I’ve got this really icky feeling now. I’ve got over half of a laskiaispulla left.. it’s just too sweet. The cream.. the almond filling.. shudders

I’ve finished the trilogy by Josie Litton. And now I’ve got this useless feeling. Nothing to occupy my time with. It’ll be a long time before Friday gets here and then I’ll be able to borrow “Can You Keep A Secret” from Krisi.. I’ve read that book at least 3 times already, but I’ve got nothing else to read. All of my books are in Belgium. sniffle I just loved that trilogy though. Some of it was kinda corny.. like the way it was written, using “mayhap” instead of “maybe”..It actually sorta reminds me of the stuff I’ve tried to write when I was bored. The reason why I’ve never finished any of it is just that. Too corny. I think it sounds really silly when someone tries to write in old English when it’s not something someone’s saying..

I’ve been thinking.. yes, a dangerous thing, I know. Wow.. just had a flashback of “Beauty And The Beast” by Disney.. Gaston sings that bit with LeFou. Anyway.. now I’ve lost my train of thought.. ah well.. shrugs

Ooh.. must go to RyanAir and see how much the tix are. Then the next step will be to convince my mom to let me stay for more than 2 weeks.. since I’ll be spending the money on the flights anyway, why not stay for a bit longer for the same price?

I wish the weather would make its mind already. I really do. Right now there’s snow coming down so quickly that you can barely see where you’re going because of the sting it causes when it hits your face..

Ah well.. more quizzies for you all! Why? Because I’m bored and I’m done with work.. just gotta ask how am I going to be paid for today’s work.. a waste of time really, but if they want me to do it, I will. ^_^

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

Okay.. sorta agree with this. But only when pigs sprout wings will I become a lawyer. Politician is a bit iffy as well, but not totally out of the question. Out of those I think I'd prefer being a writer the most.

You Have A Type A- Personality

A- You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it’s playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it’s hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

Who would've thunk? XP